There are so many days where I want to post and talk with you, but my mind is too distracted, unfocused, anxious, and or depressed. I have been thinking, there is no reason why that should stop me from posting. Every mood is just another part of my daily life. As I learn more about my bipolar illness I have become familiar with the Mood State Pyramid (created by DBSA San Diego). This pyramid was developed to be an easy tool to track mood swings by assigning a number to a mood level. The rating system starts at 0 -Extremely Depressed, Suicidal and goes to 10- Full Mania. Having a general idea of how I am feeling each day helps me understand why I may get upset easier or why I wake up angry or agitated, or why on some days I can’t do anything but sleep. My mood will control how I write, edit, and interact with you. I am starting to be okay with each post not being consistent in writing style or attitude because depending on my mood number, it will reflect how I am feeling that day. So from now on I will put a number with each post. Mental Health is something we all need to be open and talk about, so lets start here.
I apologize for the lack of posts some weeks, it is not that I am not thinking or care about you all. It is my mental health calling and messing up my days when it was going all so great. One of the most frustrating traits of having bi-polar1. Some days I am so manic, I can not even try to put words together, let alone a thoughtful and educational post. Other days, I can’t get my mind to wake up enough to write, sleep is all my body craves and that is what I give it, along with my daily yoga. So in between these days I write, express myself and do my best to help myself and others.
The days I do post when manic, I apologize if my posts aren’t up to my own standard or aren’t always clear. My mind and raw emotions are at their finest.As I learn to handle my anxiety and bi-polar, I hope to be on a bi- weekly posting schedule. On these days I am reachable on Twitter at @bipolarbree1.
As I learn to handle my anxiety and bipolar, I hope to be on a bi- weekly posting schedule. All days I am reachable on Twitter at @bipolarbree1. Thank you for your understanding in advance.